I can't seem to get myself going - at work, at the gym, in the kitchen. After a good run this summer (I was so productive, eating healthy), I am just kind of skidding through the past couple of weeks.
The good news is that the marathon training continues. The long runs are getting long - I mean really long. And this past Sunday I had my first "walk to the finish" because I just couldn't get myself to jog the final half mile or so. But the important thing is that I got the mileage in. That is my most important goal.
But I have to admit, everything else is just stagnating. Pilates, other classes aren't happening as much. I even have trouble getting myself into the gym some mornings. Things are only going to get harder once the semester starts again.
I have been very happy with how I look. I was thinking about how lucky I am to have a wonderful husband and a healthy body... and good clothes. Why am I continuing to try to lose weight?? But the unhappy answer to that question is that if I am not trying to lose weight, I am actually slowly gaining weight. It is a sad statement on where I am with food that I cannot maintain - it is a constant struggle for me to NOT eat in a completely insane way. Everyday, I want to pack away two or three normal-sized lunches, by myself, before dinner. I have to fight to eat one normal lunch, let alone a healthy, low-calorie lunch.
So that is the struggle. Forget a low calorie sandwich-and-a-fruit lunch - I am just trying to eat one COSI sandwich rather than the whole menu at one time. Most of the time I win this fight. Sometimes I lose.
Hence, stagnation!
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